was doin my round in oncology ward. so long had not been surrounded by ppl waiting for death. can literally feel it in their face. just chat with one uncle. he appeared calm awaiting his time. he had ca pancreas, which recently about 3 weeks ago, the ca had spread to his liver and bone.
when i asked him about his anticipation of death, he told me he is happy because his sons had grown up to be successful. suddenly i felt this surge of feeling that how many days were left between our parents.
and if i were to go tonite, would i still have any regrets?
working in the liason psychiatry team had given me a chance to go b to the good old medical world, not just looking at mentally ill patients. it is more of ppl dying, suffering from other illness, single mum. the world is not a perfect place, a lot of family is basically screwed up, and a lot of ppl just dun get how lucky they are. ...
and how much thankful am i in my situation? and how much had i given to others to help them?
Monday, July 13, 2009
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My dear,I've been shared with u that it's not easy to be a doctor...U shd appreciate the most precious things u r having now(healthy)..Yes, I agree that hospital is a very horrible place for me coz I rather choose not to live so long in this world each time I go to the place...Seeing people suffering with illness..U never understand that they r having the most lonely heart in this world. Those people who r having normal life say they r lonely...Just they don't understand what is the real lonely...Since u were young, I knew that u'll face the day coming abt ur parent(Ha, u mentioned to me, may be u've forgotten this stuff)...I think everyone is scare people that we love will leave us,right? Really can't do anything, I rather choose I'm the one who is going bk to heaven first(very selfish thought,ha! Wen Jih,Gambateh to be a good doctor...Ur patients need u, may be they won't regrets in their whole entire life just to meet a very good doctor as u, someone who is willing to talk, to listen,to share life with them...No matter how long they r still living...Pray for u and God Bless!
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